I feel empty sometimes , and , you know what? Nothing sucks more than feeling nothing and everything at the same time. It makes you feel exahausted and confused. I'm not interested in anything anymore. I'm done with everything. I can laugh and smile during the day but when I'm alone I forget how to feel. I lose my faith and my strength. I'm just a lonely soul lost in the darkness so darkness I became. No matter how many people are around , I'm feeling alone. And when you are alone , you get bad thoughts and they keep on torturing you everytime. You can't make them go away , you can't escape from them , even if you really want to. We all carry these things inside us that no one else can see . They don't kill you but they make you wish you were dead. And after all the shit I have been through , I really deserve some good things. But, It's okay. I guess I wasn't meant to have a good life ..